Schwartzman stressed his son was in therapy and receiving treatment.Д«enвЂ™s mental health issues were exacerbated, Schwartzman said, when he began experimenting with marijuana while also on medication for his depression. By the time puberty hit, he was diagnosed with depression and bipolar disorder.

He didnвЂ™t make this choice in a sound state of mind.ДЄs a boy, Ben developed an involuntary tic around 4 or 5 years old. Someone who doesnвЂ™t have mental illness does not move towards death. вЂњYes, itвЂ™s someoneвЂ™s choice ultimately, but the illness is really making it. It is included on BenвЂ™s album.ДolanвЂ™s perspective has changed in the years since. One of DolanвЂ™s early songs, вЂњYour Choice,вЂќ written and recorded within a year of BenвЂ™s death, delves into the heartbreak and anger she felt at the time. вЂњJust knowing that my brotherвЂ™s music is still thriving and reaching people - keeping his memory and spirit alive in the world - itвЂ™s a really healing thing to have,вЂќ Dolan said. They performed вЂњOne Sweet LoveвЂќ by Sara Bareilles.

One of her first public performances was alongside Ben at a coffee shop just three days before his death. Hayley Schwartzman, now 30-year-old Hayley Dolan, is living in Portland, where she performs solo and in bands on the weekends. ItвЂ™s an upbeat tempo, but the lyrics are bleak. Ben used to call his father вЂњBig Man,вЂќ though the song seems to also refer to God. One of the songs on his album, вЂњBig Man,вЂќ was written in part to placate his fatherвЂ™s push for something more upbeat, Schwartzman remembers. вЂњI would say to Ben, youвЂ™ve got to lighten it up for your audience because everything is too heavy for them,вЂќ Schwartzman said. His cover song choices were also steeped in melancholy - вЂњCreepвЂќ by Radiohead, The BeatlesвЂ™ вЂњYesterday.вЂќ There is a paradoxical sweetness to his voice, as he sings out lyrics that are anything but sweet. The Blue Room CafГ© in Highland was a favorite spot.ДЄs such, his music has a distinct coffee shop/acoustic singer-songwriter vibe. Uncle Tommy came through, and by 15 or 16, Ben was playing open mics at coffee shops. вЂњI just saw a note in here from his Uncle Tommy, who says at age 12, Ben asked him to teach him some chords on his guitar,вЂќ Schwartzman said. When asked about BenвЂ™s interest in music, his father reaches back into the bag. To listen to my sonвЂ™s music without crying? ThatвЂ™s a win.вЂќДЄccording to his family, Ben Schwartzman and his younger sister, Hayley, had happy childhoods in northwest Indiana.Д«en graduated from Lake Central High School in 2007 and attended what is now Purdue University Northwest. вЂњIf nothing else, that just allows me to feel good. For 14 years, IвЂ™d be brokenhearted,вЂќ Schwartzman said, his voice breaking up as he pushes the words out. вЂњNow when I hear his music, I feel optimistic. HeвЂ™s hoping for a Grammy, Schwartzman is not ashamed to say, but heвЂ™ll settle for the feelings BenвЂ™s newly released songs give him as he hums along in his car. But he also hopes BenвЂ™s story will spread awareness about mental health and suicide prevention.ДЄll proceeds from the release will go to Centerstone, a nonprofit mental health provider. Schwartzman hopes people enjoy the music. 12, вЂњFalling StarвЂќ was released in several-song chunks through streaming services and a new website.

15, the anniversary of BenвЂ™s death, and ending Nov. These lyrics, from BenвЂ™s song вЂњLet Me Go,вЂќ are carved into his tombstone and a park bench in Schererville, where Ben grew up.ДЄfter Ben died, his father made it a personal mission to share this music - some of the most tangible proof that Ben was here.ДЄfter 14 years of cold calls and failed celebrity run-ins help from a few of his fellow Hoosiers have given Schwartzman his chance.Д«eginning on Oct. His parentsвЂ™ marital problems, God and thoughts of self-harm were all probed. He recorded songs of angst, of heartbreak, of the metaphysical and the mundane. As severe depression and bipolar disorder weighed on his teenage years, Ben took his guitar with him everywhere.

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